Picking up from where I last left off

I know know, it's been awhile. Things are going good. My life is back in order and I'm happy about it. School is starting soon, so I'll be moving back into the house soon. I still have to do all my packing and clean up home though.

My lawyer is awesome he helped me out with a speeding ticket, which took a lot of pressure off my back so props to him.

I can't wait to be back into the swing of things, vacation is fun but being home does get boring after awhile.

I'm finally taking calculus, so it seems like I have made a step through my academic progress and that feels really good.

I'm rush chair this semester for the Alpha Sigs. I have been able to put too much time into yet
, but once I get settle I look forward to getting a lot down with my committee.

That all I have for now, over the next few days I'll have some exciting posts. One of them pertaining to UCGO related project.

Happy Belated Birt... er Turkey Day

It's been a month since my last post. I took a break, kinda from everything. After the break it's time for me to get my ass back into gear and take care of a bunch of things. Mostly school related things that is.

I built a new computer, it's a beast.

COD 4 owns my life, it's a fantastic game.

Assassin's Creed was good, but it could've been better.

I'm looking forward to Mass Effect when I have time to really sit down and enjoying(and when gamefly ships it to me).

Can't Sleep

Ugh, class at 10 tomorrow. I have presentation due tomorrow which I'm presenting. I hate my group members. I had to finish putting together the PP presentation, I had to write the outline, and I had to fix the information they gave. I almost want to say fuck it make someone else present.

Today would not be a good day to try an quit smoking.

Life is good

That potentially bad news turned out to be benign(no it wasn't cancer).

Fuck yea.

Looking back it's kinda funny, all the shit that happened.

I guess jumping to conclusions really does get you no where.

Physics class is f=ma boring

I feel as if this entire lecture block is pointless. The man reads off his lecture notes from online, and sometimes he doesn't even do his own problem(which are completely solved in his notes) correctly. The only saving grace of this course is that my recitation professor is awesome.

Getting back in touch

Last night was good, beyond good it was fantastic. It's been awhile since I last partied, and had some fun, I really needed it. It's good to see that the sig house is still standing, and that my brothers are still awesome. J was with me, he had a good time too(passing out on a couch). I need to start being around them more often, good energy coming from those guys, my bros.

Chapter Closed

Tomorrow will be the beginning of a new chapter, where I focus on improving myself for myself. Looking back my kindness in the end may have been mistaken for weakness. I refuse to deal with the situation anymore as it has interrupted two lives enough as it is already. Now is for healing.

I had my mental breakdown today, it was a long time coming(relatively). I was amazed how composed I had been for such awhile. I cried, I cried hard and long. I cried until I got a migraine and become physically ill. I had tried to see things from the other perspective, and I understood there was pain. I tried to prostrate myself in front of those who hate me, simply turn my cheek, but I guess to them I am not even worth a second anymore.

I do believe in the penguins, and I hope that eventually two certain penguins can be together forever. Like you said now is just no longer the right time.


I marked this date 5 years from now on my calender, and I will never forget 9/26/07. The day the truth turned my world upside down.

Oh god give me the strength to move on for myself and please give her a happy life with or without me, because even now I believe she deserves it more than most people on this earth.