Chapter Closed

Tomorrow will be the beginning of a new chapter, where I focus on improving myself for myself. Looking back my kindness in the end may have been mistaken for weakness. I refuse to deal with the situation anymore as it has interrupted two lives enough as it is already. Now is for healing.

I had my mental breakdown today, it was a long time coming(relatively). I was amazed how composed I had been for such awhile. I cried, I cried hard and long. I cried until I got a migraine and become physically ill. I had tried to see things from the other perspective, and I understood there was pain. I tried to prostrate myself in front of those who hate me, simply turn my cheek, but I guess to them I am not even worth a second anymore.

I do believe in the penguins, and I hope that eventually two certain penguins can be together forever. Like you said now is just no longer the right time.


I marked this date 5 years from now on my calender, and I will never forget 9/26/07. The day the truth turned my world upside down.

Oh god give me the strength to move on for myself and please give her a happy life with or without me, because even now I believe she deserves it more than most people on this earth.