What to say?

Today was a bad day, possibly one of the worst I can think of in recent memory. It's funny how life has a tendency not to work out the way you want. As of right now my relationship is but shredded tatters, of what it was. I don't know what will happen, I don't know what should happen, but I know what I want to happen. Right now I need to take my time and return to my roots. Focus on my school work, and get back in touch with those who have stuck by me.

I'm not depressed, refuse to be. I am sad, as I am not a cold hearted monster. I realize life goes on. I must put the past behind me, and as many of my friend have said I must focus on learning for my future. Not just educationally, in moral fortitude as well.

I realize that the situation is my destiny, everything that has happened has been do to my actions or lack of actions. I truly regret with my entire being for the pain I've caused, but at the same time my soul feels like it has be torn into a thousand pieces and scattered.

Also today I linked my blog to my facebook profile, I doubt anyone will read what I have to say, but it matters not to me. This remains my place to put my thoughts down for reflection.

As much as I want things to be the way they were when things were good, I don't know if they ever will or can be. I miss her but I think the best thing I can do right now is let go for both our sakes.

"If you love someone, set them free. If they come back they're yours; if they don't they never were."

I take this quote to heart, as I believe it has an important message, that no one is worth loving if they will not love you back.

"Do the impossible, see the invisible"

I don't know if there is anything left to say. I feel as if though this has been ranting, it feels quite therapeutic however.

I know I'm young, and that there are more fish in the sea. At least that's what everyone keeps telling me, and I feel that's the advice I would offer to myself in this situation. Though being on the receiving end of such sentiments. While good natured, seem so cliche when you're the one hurting. I guess everyone feels like this at one point. I guess people say it though because there is a certain truth it.

I am not the same man I was a year ago, and I will probably a different man 5 years from now. All I can do is stick to what I know to be right, and let life pull me along in it's current, occasionally swimming against it to fight for what i know is right.