Shit Happens

I haven't posted in a few days. I got some news, that could potential change my life. I feel despair, anxiety, and anger, while at the same time I don't want to talk about it. It feels like I'm being punished for something I didn't do. Just as things are looking up in my life wham this shit comes down.

I keep telling myself that I can get through it, and no matter what life goes on. I've always tried to live with idea that the next day will always come, and it will. I've sulked for too long, I'm done with it.

The only thing I worry about now is why I haven't heard form my girlfriend in several days. I really don't know what to think. We said that everything would be ok, that we would face whatever came together. It's not that I don't have faith in her, it's that I worry what her parents(who control her life) will make her do.

I just hope she realizes that what I truly want is for her to be happy. With or without me it doesn't matter. She deserves the best. I wish I had told her these words before this, but who has the foresight to see their own life's short coming.

All that's left is for me to pick up the peices and move on. I have no regrets, the past is the past. I have only to look forward to the future and make my own way.

T_T

Aside from that Tengen Toppa Gurren Lagann, ended this weekend. The series came to be everything I'd wanted for in a show for along time. Gainax did a wonderful job, and I hope they continue down this path.

I also found time during my moping to watch The Melancholy of Haruhi Suzumiya which turned out to be rather enjoyable and totally not what I had expected.